lauantai 11. elokuuta 2018

maanantai 6. elokuuta 2018

Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "Wow! What a Ride!”


On Saturday evening the boiling hot Tallinn seemed to gave up a bit so it enabled me to get out of the apartment. I needed to get some fresh air and forget yesterday's Friday blues. So off we went to have dinner in Telliskivi and have drinks in rooftop. After that we decided to go and see the new PURGE movie, and I totally fell in love with that. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. aaaand it had a good soundtrack so that is always a plus.

The same morning I gladly woke up to kisses by super über duper dog who was always happy, ready to cuddle and play.

In other words, there was a cutie dog visiting over the weekend and she totally melted my heart. I was already having massive dog-fever (hi-hi) and it got even higher now! :-D However, owning a dog is a big decisions for me and that needs to be considered very carefully, because I want it to have the best possible home as well as the best possible manners, and that ofcourse takes much time, effort and love (last one is not a problem now :-D)
I really enjoyed the Saturday fully and I also obtained SQUADS chicken dinner! could anything be more perfect???

But for a moment to be serious I really had one of the best nights in Tallinn. I felt really good and relaxed. In the evening as we were walking the dog, the only think I could think was how happy I felt in that moment.

it was a good night.

ps. disclamer which comes way too late. Includes content which may put you want to be a dog owner. Look at that cutie pie!


“тнere αre тιмeѕ, нowever, αɴd тнιѕ ιѕ oɴe oғ тнeм wнeɴ eveɴ вeιɴɢ rιɢнт ғeelѕ wroɴɢ. wнαт do yoυ ѕαy, ғor ιɴѕтαɴce, αвoυт α ɢeɴerαтιoɴ тнαт нαѕ вeeɴ тαυɢнт тнαт rαιɴ ιѕ poιѕoɴ αɴd ѕeх ιѕ deαтн? ιғ мαĸιɴɢ love мιɢнт вe ғαтαl αɴd ιғ α cool ѕprιɴɢ вreeze oɴ αɴy ѕυммer αғтerɴooɴ cαɴ тυrɴ α cryѕтαl вlυe lαĸe ιɴтo α pυddle oғ вlαcĸ poιѕoɴ rιɢнт ιɴ ғroɴт oғ yoυr eyeѕ, тнere ιѕ ɴoт мυcн leғт eхcepт тv αɴd releɴтleѕѕ мαѕтυrвαтιoɴ. ιт’ѕ α ѕтrαɴɢe world. ѕoмe people ɢeт rιcн αɴd oтнerѕ eαт ѕнιт αɴd dιe.” -Hunter S. Thompson


So I asked you what you want to hear first on my instagram and you chose me to write about how judging people and being judged has had an impact on me. 

Let's make first few disclamers (because what would the tara_who post be without them am I right, I am right). I have always kept myself as very open minded person. I absolutely hate racisim, gender-unequality, or homophobic people. I feel like everybody should have right to live their lives as they want as long as they are not hurting anyone else in the process. 

That fact does not take the aspect away that I tend to be very reserved when it gets to getting to know to new people. I used to have very narrow road where I let people to get to know to me, and the once whom I felt like didn't qualify to that road I just avoided. Don't get me wrong. I have never been rude to anyone intentionally, if they haven't before that hurt my feelings. And so on- the question- if being open-minded is something that I still was?

Past a year I have been really got into my face many times. The people whom I have been avoiding a lot earlier just because I sense them to be evil has turned to be one of the sweetest people in this planet. And the trick is, when you get to know to the people you see their dark sides. And that is when the journey starts; you need to figure out why they are acting the way they do and once you get the answer; all of sudden they are not anymore evil. They are the product of the choices and environment that they have been living.

 And this is the road I am on now. It seems like earlier I only saw people either the most horrible demons or the most amazing angles. And if life was like that it would be great! Then we would be in this eternal hunt for people with golden hearts and we could set up our own great society.
How fun!
Only golden-hearted-non-damaged-people around!
fun fun FUN!

But the thing is- all people have their good sides and bad sides. 
The thing is, you just have to figure out what you are willing to stand on
and more importantly,
how much you are able risk. 

so please, if you take something from this post, take this: don't be like me years ago and just close the doors what people are trying to knock. It is a lonely ass road and in addition to that it is one hell of rollacoaster. 
So get to know to people, and if they get annoying ask yourself if it is you being oversensitive, or are you missing some point.
Ofcourse there are still bad people in this planet a lot who do horrible things.
But it does not mean that every single person tries to fuck up your life.
So be like a treasure hunter and find those gold pieces with their edge.
And if you get hurt, it is too bad isn't it.
But if you get lucky.
That may last the rest of your life.

I love you all. 
thank you for being this crazy rollacoaster with me.
I can not express how much you mean to me. 

keskiviikko 1. elokuuta 2018

𝒹𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝒷𝓊𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂𝒶𝓃

I was having fun until I realised that the glasses are upside down. 

You know those three cute emoji monkeys we have in our phones? They are cute to the point that I stopped over using them, but I never did forget the moral behind them. Hear no evil, speak no evil, see no evil. And that is what I have been exactly doing lately and it has felt good. 

Still, after all these years I seem to be forgetting that the universe knows and it got your back whether you like it or not.
It is weird how there is always something exciting around the corner, or sometimes even in the same avenue where you are but you have just been so consumed something else you haven't even understood that.

Other news, Tallinn is still boiling hot! but currently is raining and it feels so good and I think it makes good for the nature as well.

I have been dreaming about going to the burning man one day, but I am not sure if that dream ever comes true. But you know, you can always wear glasses and pretend to be there!


tiistai 31. heinäkuuta 2018

𝑔𝑜𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝑜𝓁𝑒 𝒸𝓇𝑜𝓌𝒹 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓉𝑜𝑒𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓁𝓇𝑒𝒶𝒹𝓎 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 ☾


Today was the second day of me getting to the gym after a bit break.  It genuinly feels so odd to be back and feel the love and enthusiasm that I used to have  back in the days. Yesterday- as my first day,  I had a full-body workout and today I just got a bit sweaty mostly doing upper body and some lower body workouts as well.

I truly had forgot how awesome it feels to be arounded people with the sporty environment. I mean, eventhough I have been in the gym I have been mentally totally somewhere else.
I have just gone there because I knew I had to do it. Not because I loved to do it- and that seemed to be a problem.

Afterwards when we finished the gym, we went swimming to the gyms pool (which is pretty dope)  and it helped with the heath wave that is still boiling us here in Tallinn. After the workout we got poke bowls and then got home.

There has been good days lately and staying positive (and be arounded with loving people) has helped a lot, but when it rains it pours they say, and they are not wrong. Just when I thought it got a bit easier I found myself again in crossroads. I am middle of finding a new apartment because my current landlord's relative moves to Tallinn for education and she needs the apartment back.

 It is okay to move, because I have also wanted to find a new apartment, but to be honest now in addition to all this trying to find home is a bit overhelming. But you know what, life is sometimes overhelming and then you just have to figure out to see the positive side of it. And I am pretty sure I will find as beautiful apartment as I had and as good land lord as I had earlier. And as my friend said -it is an opportunity for a new start. So on that side it sounds super good. 

As a person I tend to be one who can point the exact problem and find solutions for it but the execution is not my strongest suit. But lately, I feel like I have been doing it better. So today- I did what anyone would do, and send a few applications for beautiful homes and I am pretty confident I will get one very soon.

But back to that gym thing. I am taking baby steps going back, and it felt SO therapeutic to go and lift some weights. It was like back on those old days when I lived for that. And I am so grateful for that. I somehow seem to be forgotted that there is whole full world outside there and so many people with ambitios and the willigness to improve themselves, that is awesome!
But something has clicked back in -and that is the feeling of doing my best in the gym and forgetting everything else meanwhile-

and for the moment I felt again-
and most of all

so cheers for that!
and if you have any living solutions for me hit me up! Id appreciate it.
I love you, thank you for reading my blog and being absolutely best internet friends I have.